Tuesday, 10 August 2010
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Oh hey, xanga. Sup?
Tuesday, 30 March 2010
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Everybody in Love
By Jls
see relatedSo I took a civil services test last Thursday for a clerk typist or entry level clerical job, and I got a job offer in the mail today! Now, I'm not gonna get my hopes up, but hopefully I get the interview... and then the actual job... I'll be so damn happy! It's 40 hours/week (8-4:30PM Monday through Friday) and pays $13.35/hr! Gaaaaaah it would be fucking amazinggggg. That was pretty much the highlight of my day, or week, maybe even month.
Other things are looking up as well :) hopefully it keeps going this way...
Tuesday, 23 March 2010
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"First loves are always the hardest to get over,
because the heart has trouble closing itself off from what made it open in the first place."
^ So true :(
Of course, as soon as I read that, I thought of my ex. I'm sure most people who read that will have someone on their mind right away. I mean, we broke up almost 3 years ago, but like the quote says, he was my first love, and my first real relationship. It's definitely gotten easier to deal with... I've pretty much moved on, but surely haven't forgotten. Any time I see him or something that reminds me of him, my heart still races >.< it's ridiculous...
On another note, I weight 191.6 ONE HUNDRED NINETY-ONE POINT FUCKING SIX.
...which means I've gained over 10lbs since the last time I've weighed myself. Well, there's my fucking motivation -- I'm a fatass. I'm ready to lose at least 50lbs. Let's go.
Sunday, 21 March 2010
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Shopping?
Typical of all girls... but I love shopping. The only thing is, I buy so much damn stuff (mostly tees and shirts), but some of it I haven't even worn yet. Honestly, I feel like I COLLECT t-shirts. My mom hates it, but I loooove it. Everywhere I go (concerts, basketball tournaments I had, etc.), I haaaave to get a t-shirt. And HOODIES. Oh myyyy do I love them. Jewelry comes up third on the list. Earrings, necklaces, all crazy-colored 'cause that's the way I love 'em. I have a completely outrageous style where most of my stuff won't match technically, but I somehow find a crazy way to make it look good hahaha.
Anyway. I think shopping plays a role in my wanting to be thin phase. I buy shit and imagine how I will look in it if I was skinnier especially the nice shirts I buy, which I do sometimes wear to work but always wish I was skinnier while wearing them >.< I think that will partly be my motivation, along with spring/summer coming up. AND the fact that the kid I'm talking to (who will hopefully be my boyfriend in the near future =]), lost all this damn weight... he used to be a chubby kid, but that was when I didn't know him. And I know he likes me cause we talk all the time and have talked about being together but just don't wanna rush into things. Baaack to where I was going with that, well I easily have 20lbs on him, and I wanna lose the weight so I'll feel more comfortable around him, and him hugging me and whatnot..
PHEW I could go on and on, but it's getting freakin' hot in my house, I need to get some fresh air xD
Saturday, 20 March 2010
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Why do I feel like I need more motivation? Shouldn't life itself be my motivation? I mean, if I don't get things together asap, (I don't wanna sound so emotionless about it) but I'll end up dead in the near future. It's been three years, and I don't think I've gone a full month with controlled blood sugars. Wth is wrong with me? =/
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- Name: Stef
- Birthday: 5/16/1992
- Gender: Female
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